I miss you.

I can't believe it's been 9 years.

And it hits me the same as it did then.

I still remember the day God called you home... like it was yesterday. You had no more pain. No more suffering. You turned into my angel. And I didnt want to let go. I didn't want to say goodbye, but I knew I didn't have a choice.

I still feel you. I know you're there when I need you. I know that when I'm completely rock bottom, and my strength is completely gone, you pick me up off of the ground. I know you're there watching me make strides in my life.

You have to know life hasn't been the same ever since. I don't know how we keep going on. All I know is that you keep wanting us to. So we do. You're here. You're alive with us. The pictures and videos make it real. But I'll never dry my eyes. Because my heart still hurts. I still breathe hard and wish it never happened. But I'm not angry anymore. I know you're better off where you are. And that one day, we'll meet again.

I miss your laugh. I miss your hugs. I miss your crazy songs Grandmom used to yell at you for teaching us. I miss you coming to my softball games. I miss you scaring the hell out of me during Halloween. I miss you being Santa on Christmas. I miss your smile. I miss your kisses. I miss the sleepovers. And listening to the Phillies on AM radio while waiting for Grandmom to get off of work. I just miss you. More than anything in this world. There are no words to describe it. I think of you all of the time. Wondering if you're looking down... smiling on all of us. Keeping us protected and safe. And making sure that at the end of the day, we're grateful to have each other. I just have to think of it... I'm 9 years closer to seeing you again.

I love you, Poppy. So much. And I miss you like crazy. I'll see you soon. But until then.. keep everyone company. Make sure to watch over the Phillies with good old Harry. And I'll have hugs and kisses for you forever. <3333

RIP Francis (Frank) Shertel (aka Poppy)

3.1.36-4.28.01

You're proof that the Lord only takes the best.

Donations needed please!! :)

My sister and her friends are doing the American Cancer Society Relay For Life walk June 12-13th. I will be one of the chaperones. I'm posting to see if anyone would like to donate to the cause. It would be greatly, greatly appreciated. You can contact me for more details. Please consider making a donation. Even if it's a small amount, it'll make a big difference. You can also donate to my sister's team online!! http://main.acsevents.org/goto/stormtroopers

Thank you in advance!!

Heather
Kotazbabiigurl143@gmail.com

I figured it all out....wooooo!

yes, I am that freaking awesome. :)

(stay tuned for the update. it'll happen in about a month or so.. woo)

I feel the need to blog.. lol.

About what? I have no idea. Ehh... randomness, this is me. :)

I quit Firefigher 1. I've gotten a lot of criticism over it, but people need to realize it was my decision. It was affecting a lot of things in my life, and I feel that there are more important things I have to deal with and take care of than becoming a firefighter. I know the consequences. But to me, it's something I needed to do. Yes, I know I was close to graduating (May 25th, and I just quit last week...), but like I said..there are more important things that I need to take care of. I just hope I didn't disappoint my family as much as I think I did. We'll see.

I absolutely LOVE this weather. I love Winter. But I've had enough of the snow. But the warm (NOT hot lol) days and cooler nights...longer days.... it's ... ahhh. I love it. I love having the windows open.. and flip flops on. It needs to stay like this for a while.. and hopefully not get too hot too soon.

Its official... the start of car show season. And I'm so excited. We went to one yesterday, and Jeff got Best Truck of the show. I'm so proud of him. :) We had a lot of fun.. and I know it's not about winning. But that's definitely a plus. We have one to go to this upcoming Sunday.. and it should be fun. It's for breast cancer, so anything to have fun and donate to a great cause is always awesome. And I cant wait to make Lil M (my car hehehe) sexy for car shows. She'll show eventually.. gotta work on her a little more. :)

I miss my husband. So much. Especially now, since I'm in the middle of watching the movie we saw the day we got together. He's now working nights once again.. and it sucks. I know he needs to work, since I still haven't found a job (which pisses me off beyond belief in itself), but it just sucks not really seeing him too much. And eating dinner by myself. Thank goodness I have him on the weekends though. :)

Our anniversary is in a little over a month. I can't believe we'll be married 4 years already. We've been together 8 years. Seems like yesterday that we were engaged. But I wouldn't have my life any other way. He's my best friend. And I love him more than I could ever put into words. I am definitely one of the luckiest people in the world, no question about it. <3.

T minus 25 days until Wildwood. :) And even shorter for Jeff going on vacation. Yay! I love the month of May lol.

Okay, enough blogging for me right now. Until next time. :)

oxoxoxoxo.

PHILLIESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh.. my year just got better. <3333333

I think some people need to take a step back and realize how freaking lucky they are.

I think some people need to mind their own damn business and not jump to conclusions.

I think some people need to grow the eff up and move on.

oh. and ps. the number is now up to 17. fucking joy.