You and I are well known enemies.

But I will win this battle...and every single one after that.

And when I finally declare victory, I'll love you again.

One battle down, and I'm gonna be left a little sore..

But remember this.. I love the pain. =)

A different type of future..

And it all starts Friday.

Thank goodness. Though I am ridiculously nervous and anxious, I'm excited to finally do something that'll keep my mind occupied. And it'll be like that for the next 5 months.

Am I hoping that in the process, miracles actually work for me and I get pregnant? Yep.

But I'm not going to be bummed if I don't get pregnant right away. Because being pregnant, well, it'll probably keep me from completing my goals. But if I do get pregnant, I'll sacrifice it. And I can always complete it later.

And it'll keep me busy enough so I don't have to constantly read about crap I don't want to. Internet with me.. it's a love-hate relationship.

Time to get back to the paperwork... fun fun.

Have you ever just felt tired?

I'm so tired of it all.

I'm tired of waiting and taking breaks.

I'm tired of years going by with no result whatsoever.

I'm so tired of being surrounded by pregnant women. No matter where I go, it's ridiculous.

I'm tired of those pregnant women complaining about being pregnant when they made such a big deal that they wouldn't.

I'm tired of every where I turn, one more gets added to the list.

I'm tired of people trying to tell me how I should think, say, and/or feel.

I'm tired of people thinking they know the whole story, and give me the WORST advice ever.

I'm seriously tired of all of it. No, I don't care that you're tired. I don't care that you are tired of morning sickness. No, I don't care if you cant sleep at night because you're getting kicked or you cant get comfortable. I'm tired of people blasting their facebooks with shit that the public does NOT need to know. I'm tired of constantly having to hit the hide button because I don't feel like hearing it/reading it anymore.

And no, I don't care if you take offense to this. If you do, then don't freaking read it. I have every single right to do this, since I've been trying for years for something that I feel every day moving further and further away from me. It's my blog, and I can post anything I want. And yeah, I get that people are excited, but there's a difference between excitement and taking it too damn far. Yes, I know I'm still young. Yes, I know I still have a chance. But I'm also effing tired of it hearing it. And I'm fully allowed to break down and freak out about it. It's not effing fair. And no matter what, I keep getting bombarded with it. But whatever. I needed to vent and did so. Thank goodness for my blog.